i should be asleep

Instead I am tossing and turning in bed. I'd blame the coffee I had late in the afternoon, but this sleeplessness is most likely over my excitement for this blog. Though, to be honest, I've been dealing with an early morning bedtime for months now, sometimes sleeping as late as 5 AM, so this insomnia can't be due to just caffeine and enthusiasm.

It's not good, I know. In fact this is probably detrimental to my overall health. But I can't help it; something about the late night/early morning calls to me, energizes me.

This is the time when I am most motivated to create. I get into the zone to write and draw and journal most often in the dark of the night, the wee hours of the morning — probably because, by then, all my work is done for the day, and everyone else is asleep. No one is awake to ask me to do something. Nothing is pressing. Nothing is urgent. It's just me and my creations. 

The only price I pay is the dark circles under my eyes, and that I always wake up at around 10 AM, which means I've slept almost half of the day away. 

I should really fix my bedtime. I will fix my bedtime. I will. I promise. I'll start tomorrow. Or, rather, tonight.

 

Why am I still awake... 

Good night!